wouldn't have it any other way.

We have successfully made it through our first night away from Will. I dropped him off yesterday afternoon with Grammy (my mom) & Grandpa. They told me to have a wonderful night & not to call....but they PROMISED to text me updates. I didn't have a single ounce of worry in my body when I left him there. There is something comforting knowing your momma - the one who raised you, loved you, is taking care of your baby. I came home & we had 3 hours until we had to leave. I sat around our completly quiet house, missing the giggles, cries, screams, & diaper changes. Its funny how even when those moments seem stressfull, I wouldn't change our life for anything. I realized how much Will brings to our life: love, busyness, chaotic at times, joy, & how he seems to fill every single minute of everyday. Around 7 we got ready & headed to the Cecil's for Brian's 60th Birthday. I told myself I couldn't drink much because I wanted to enjoy my night of sleep & couldn't ruin it with a hangover. One beer & an 1.5 hours later we were home. It was a beautiful party....LOTS of people & good company but I wanted nothing more than to sit on our couch & relax. I made it the whole time without talking to my mom & dad thanks to my Dad's hourly text updates! I was alseep by 9:30 & I NEVER thought I'd say this, but I missed getting up in the night & seeing Will's face. I mean I slept great, but it made me realize how much of a routine I am in. I was up at 6am like clockwork & on the phone to Grammy telling me everything went great. It was a wonderful experience but definitly don't plan on doing it anytime soon!

today is a new day.

Yesterday was not a good day. For starters, Will had to go to the pedi because he's had a nasty cough & then I noticed all these white spots on his tongue. Well Dr.D our regular pedi was all booked up so I had to see someone else. I got to Sutter and got called back. I learned we would be seeing a 2nd year resident. fine. So he comes in checks out Will & we are talking & I mention how we started oatmeal cereal about a week ago. (By the way he weighed 17 lbs. 4 oz!!!!) He immedietly started questioning me telling me I shouldn't be doing. (This was ok'd by Dr.D the week prior.) He goes to get his attending physician to check out the white spots & she begins to question me regarding the solids. I mention to her I'm not trying to take an easy way out but when my child is up every 2 hours to eat 6-8 oz. every night I know he's starving. She goes on to tell me that this is a "behavioral issue." I lost it the minute I walked out the door. Bawled my eyes out in the car & to Jamee & to Eric when I got home. Not what a new mother, trying her best wants to hear.

After I got home, Eric watched Will & I left. I got in my car. By myself. The 22 second drive to Bel-Air wasn't long enough. I walked slowly to Starbucks. This was something a hot mocha could fix & boy did it taste good. I walked to the grocery store & took my....sweeet.....time. Who knew I would run away to the grocery store to be alone!?

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So when I became a mom I immediately found the things I love & the things I don't love. Who really spends $45 on a 14x14inch piece of fabric? Apparently I do. He already has a special bond with his Little Giraffe blankey (or I'd like to think he does.) Is it really neccessary to spend $3.99 on Boogie Wipes? I certainly think so -they smell oh so good. Certain other blankets we use around the house: I got 3 million of them as gifts & yet I go through the same 4 because of their ubber softness, cuteness, & ability to scream "I'm a boy." Nuk pacifiers: because Soothies look ridiculous. Johnnson & Johnson Nightime bath - I'm pretty sure my parents' used J&J & I still have 10 fingers & 10 toes. Driving all the way to Sacramento to get Pampers Swaddlers in size 2-3 so I don't have to give in to the yucky feeling of Baby Drys' yet. Pampers Sensitive wipes NOT the "thick" sensitive because those one's smell like old beer. Of course my beloved BOB stroller...I think it speaks for itself. On-the-go meals for myself are a must these days & I'm currently obsessed with the Healthy Choice Pasta strainer ones: so yummy! And what got me to write this post: I bought a pair of jeans from babyGap that were lined with flannel. Its like cheating; Will thinks he's wearing sweatpants but he looks 10x cuter because they are really jeans. Well my huge child grew out of the 6-12 months & I went back for the bigger size. Of course they stopped making them. So at 1am last night I got on eBay. Oh eBay, I swear you can find anything. Sure enough, my favorite pair of jeans for the boy for $4.99. Can't beat that. (although I did pay more for shipping then the actual jeans.)

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Shortly after Will was born my mom asked me if I ever thought I could love something as much as I love Will. I never knew I could have so much love for one human being. I thought my wedding day was the happiest day of my life & I thought I couldn't possibly love anything as much as I love Eric. Eric's best man said in his speech, "You think today is the happiest day of your life, wait until your baby is born." I knew it would be an exciting day but I never fathomed how it would change me forever. Just when I think I cannot love him anymore, I pick him up, squeeze him & I just want to hold him all day. His smile makes me melt, he's the happiest baby I've ever met (I'm dreading have more because I know they will never be this easy!), & I'm so happy how my life has changed. The beer bottles have been replaced with milk bottles, the drunk late night munchies have turned into late night feedings, & our Saturday nights out have turned into going to sleep at 8pm! But I would never in a million years trade my old life for this life. I can't wait for what our future holds as a family & I'm so grateful for the 2 boys in my life. They complete me.

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THANK YOU JESS! Jess over at Nurse Momma nominated me for the Beautiful Blogger Award & I'm truly flattered!

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~Thank the person who nominated you and link to their blog.

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~Tell us 7 interesting facts about yourself.

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7 Pretty Sweet Things About ME!

1. I love being a SAHM but cannot wait to be a nurse.
2. My entire dad's side of the fam lives in England.
3. I go to Target almost everyday.
4. I tore my ACL standing in the lift line snowboarding = )
5. My husband thinks I eat at least 5lbs. of chocolate a week. I'm obsessed.
6. Glee is my favorite show on TV.
7. There were chickens walking around my wedding reception.

My nominations:

Jill, one of my closest friends over @ tillforever.blogspot.com
Alissa of Molly & Mommy @ mollybrynn.blogspot.com
Morgan over @ the818.com
Blair over @ theheirtoblair.com
Ashleigh over @ ashleighandshaun.blogspot.com
Amy over @ justanothermomday.blogspot.com (SUPER yummy quick meals!!)
Julie over @ farberfam.blogspot.com

I don't know how this happened.

I'll let you see it with your very own eyes. I got on the scale this morning & this is what is said. Thats right....10 more lbs. & I'm back to my pre-pregnancy weight. I have no idea how this happened. I started eating Lean Cuisine for dinner the past 3days & thats the only thing different I've done. I'm going to count my lucky stars & keep doing what I'm doing!!! SO EXCITED....hopefully I'll be down to 150 by the time we leave for Hawaii!